Ola~

Heyy~ It's been so long, huh? AMAGATZZ dis so sed i miss dis so bad.

Not really. HAH! Fooled'ya. Or did I?

   It's like already page 9 of 365 pages of book 2014. But, a late happy new year wish isn't that bad, right? Who am I kidding? I'TS HORRIBLE FOR LATE WISHES .__.

   
  My school has like new stuff going on this year. There are the good news and the horrifying, dumb bad news. I don't know where to begin. Wait. I do. Let's begin with the timetables. Ha! Ha ha. I DUN WANT DISSSS~ It's sooooo freaking tiring. Imagine one subject for 2 hours or like 1 hour and a half. Then, evening classes. Normal schools around here ain't like that. Well, what can I say? It's very GIFTED. I just have to face it. With stress.

  
   I have SPM coming up this year. Yeaaaayy. (note the obvious sarcasm on the 'yay' there -.-). Seems like there's gonna be some superspeed learning this year. And I bet I won't understand it well. I'm actually very scared. My school's syllabus and marks system is different. If it weren't for the carry marks here, I would've failed. I think. Maybe. 


    I always talk about school, no? That's because I have no life. I don't even like, have a TRUE friend. I can say that everyone here is a close friend. But, not real enough. Backstabbing. Pfft -.- Man, I'm truly sad. I feel empty too. I almost always am. *points at the hole in my heart* (there is no hole in my heart, but let's pretend there is one). Ans one more thing is, I think I might be bipolar or something. My mood changes are so sudden. I only noticed that when I thought back of what I've done for a day. Maigod. Weird. Kay. 


   Oh, and I really am sorry if I, you know, hurt anyone's feelings or something. I get guilty so fast. I can forgive anyone but I know that not everyone can forgive me. Ugh.


  *emotional slot closes*


  I'm too tired to even think. (actually posting this 1.27 in the morning here). Oh well. I'll just be stupid for the rest of my life. *sigh*


    I have been doing a mini tiny extremely midget research on sleeping. (don't know whether midget applies here). Want a fresh morning wake up? Sleep in multiples of 90 minutes :D

Okay. gtg sleep nowww~ (gonna put this mini research thing into action :p)

Byeee, :*

Fun

Ihiks ihiks. I'M BACK. Now, where's my prize? No prize? Fine ;____;

    I had fun these past few days. Fun, I say. FUN! Too bad you people aren't in my shoes. BECAUSE MY SHOES ARE MINE HAH!. I've been caps-lock-ing a LOT lately. Just because I can.

  So on Monday about 1/6 of CSI-ans had a reunion. Weehee. We had le reunion at Times Square. Oh, the fun. As we all met we had this kinda 'OMG IT'S YOU!' moment and all the huggy things. Then, we were separated. Izzat went on a date with Amir while me, Afiqah and Hafizah had our own way of spending our time. The guys went to watch Ender's Game as we girls went for archeryyyyy~. IT WAS MY FIRST TIME. Yet, I was awesome. *flips hair*. We walked around together, chit-chat and all. I very much enjoyed that. Now, I miss them so bad already. Haihh. Well, after all the separating-sad-speak-hug-stuff-thing, Amir and I went to the Mines as he said TGV is releasing Catching Fire early. He was wrong. Meh. Then, we went on a ferry from the Mines to KTM since we were too tired to walk. That was enjoyable. Fun day indeed.

  On Tuesday, it was day where I had to meet my research mentor along with my research-mates, Qistina and Hathim. Early in the morning, Hathim's mom picked me and Qistina up from Quad P. We made our way to HUKM. We ate there. We had to wait for quite a while for Hathim's uncle @ research mentor @ Dr. Roslan. Soon after he arrived, he suggested a research to be done (NOT TELLING IT HERE). It was pretty interesting. And we're gonna be doing it with his PhD student. Yippie. So, our mentor is okay and his PhD student is cool and cute according to Qistina. Wow. Then, on our way back, Hathim's mom treated us at McDonald's :D That made my day. Aaaaaand as we arrived Quad P my dad called to pick me up.

I was like 'OMG! WTH! NOW? I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED PACKING'.

And, I made him wait for so long. I had A LOT OF CLOTHES.

Now, I'm at my grandma's house since my mom hasn't started her journey from Kedah. My house and my grandma's house is sooooo near. I'm enjoying my time playing with my cute cousins. I HAVE BECOME A CHILD WITH THEM. The child in my heart has never been so active.

Yeah. Aaaaand now I was planning to watch movies online but none of the new movies are uploaded yet xD

That's why I'm here :p

Holidays ain't gonna be so empty as I have assignments. Just a little assignment with LOTS OF WORK AND READING AND TYPING TO BE DONE .__. Oh, well

Thta's all from me.

Byeeee :*

Boredom strikes

Hello, fellow humans. I return once again. My life is somewhat boring. Nothing much special. Maybe it's not my life, maybe it's me. :O *dramatic music plays*

  Okay so here I am at the hostel while my pals are leaving. *cries* ;____; It's the school holidays. Yet, I'm at school. I'll be staying until Wednesday. Thanks to research stuff. Ugh. Research. The thought about makes me so irritated. Doing a research for like what you really want to know is fun. It's not fun when you're forced to do it in order to get the high school diploma. Sheesh

  All I'm doing now is surfing the web, reading manga (yes, i read manga and i love animes don't judge me), all those sorta stuff.

  WHEN LIFE THROWS YOU LEMONSSSS, YOU MAKE LEMONAAAAAADE

  Hehe, I like saying that in a sing-song tune. It's from Gumball. Yeah, I'm 15 yet I watch all kiddie stuff. I don't care bro.

  Oh, I've noticed that people think of me as 'manly'. WHY IN THE WORLD AM I MANLY? I'm just a girl ;___; They think it's weird when I like cute stuff and be all girly. But, that''s just another part of me that I hide. I'm still a girl. No one can change that. Biologically.

  How I hope I have a friend who'd join me jogging right now. I miss being all exercise-ish. I don't know why but I  like getting tired, sweating and all that although I stink. It's like I'm letting all my stressing energy go away in like a different form. (hehe law of conservation of energy hehe physics hehe i remember wow).

Hmm. I'll just continue what I'm doing now. Maybe I'll study. Maybe NOT. Yeah, I think the 'not' studying wins.

Bored Liyana is bored.

Bye :*

A little note

     Hello there human beings. (obviously. why would a plant even be reading this -.-). Haven't been posting on my blog. Yeah. The assignment thingy is OOOOOVVVER. So, I was thinking to make this blog, A BLOG. Don't get what I mean? This blog was originally a blog created for le me's English assignment. But, I'm planning to take it to a new level. Probably, this will officially be a normal blog where, you know, people blog. Blog blog blog. I'm currently so bored that I'm posting this right now. It's like 2 something in the morning. Yeah. I'm badass. I've been badass like forever. Only, I've been actively badass recently.

Okay. No more badass talks.

Because I'm badass.

Weird how a badass's blog is full of flowers. .____.

Okay maybe I'm the nice badass. ( Whuuuuuuuuuuuut in the world is wrong with me? ._. )

   Currently having exams, but I don't have that exam feel. Y'know when like, you have exams and you're like "Oh shit, I have exams. I should be studying like mad right now". Yeah. Not having the exam feels. I even watched SIX movies throughout these two weeks of exam. SIX MOVIES. Not one, not two but SIX of them. While having exams. Awesome huh?

   I think I'll be doing horribly this examination. Why? Because duh. Who in the world like exams? I mean like they're a waste of time, money and brain power. It's like no use to me. But, the world we live in nowadays expects high grades, good marks and all those bla bla bla things. DO THEY THINK THAT THESE PEOPLE WITH HIGH GRADES ARE GENIUSES? NOOOOOOOO. They're not. Not all of them. Most of them just study to pass the exams. Not to like, LEARN something. Sheesh.

                                                         Where I study ^__^


They do not know geniuses are everywhere.

   I study in a gifted school where people are gifted and all things associated with that. They choose us gifted students throughout the whole Malaysia and put us in a school. And in this school, they push us towards academics. Wow, so much for taking GIFTED students. -.- They should've been taking students with good grades if all they expect is A+ everywhere. Gifted does not mean always have to be synonym-ized with academics or grades or whatever. Every student is special in they're own way. They should see that.

Okay, now I'm complaining. *sighs*

I guess I have to learn to be more grateful with what I have ._.

Here's a little challenge for me and you people.

Try not complaining for a whole month and learn to appreciate everything around you. Look into the positives of everything. 

Byee. :*

Meh.

Here I am

  Guess who's back, back again. Liyana's back, tell a friend.

  Ollo God's creations, It is I, the murderer of Fatihah. I killed her 2 nights ago. Accidentally.

  It's been a while since I last posted in le me's blog. Yeah. Thanks to the Wi-fi. No internet at the hostel. Even now, I am currently at the language lab (English period now).

  Let's talk about this camp I went for the last three days. So. Umm. Well. Yeah. I went to a camp. Woo. Great achievement. Moving on.

  It was a camp for the Jati Diri thing at school (I don't know how to translate Jati Diri -.-)

Was soooooo fun

Everything was.

First day:

We arrived there around 5 or so in the evening. Did our prayers. Then, had this breaking ice session probably (i have no idea what we sis was called). Guys made a circle and  girls made a circle in. So, we turned in our own directions (lol, one direction <3). Stopped when the music stopped turn to face your partner. I got Isaac at first. then Aniq -.- and then Adam. Then, it was group making session or something. I got in group 10 which included me, Julia, Solehah, Fatihah, Arina, Mawadah, Reshidran, Idrus and Amir Arsyad. Yeah. Awesome group. Woo.

There was this discriminative game next. Like, we have this money system and yeah who wins get the money. Then, they told us about the tender thing. Where we apply for a tender and do stuff to gain more money. On that night, we had night walking. (i seriously don't know what's it called). Yeah. Darkness. Bla bla bla. I crouched there for nearly an hour then decided to sit on my shoe. There was Vivien way in front of me and Arina way behind me. But, we all had a conversation while waiting for I don't know. Yada yada yada and I slept at 2.30 that morning .. night .. i don't know.

Next day, woke up early for prayers. Did a little exercising. Ate. Then, we had to make a flag for our groups. Make our own cheer. Create our name and motto. So, my group was called Smiggle! Thanks to Solehah sugggestion that we all agreed on. Motto? Creativity is our aim, winning is the game. I think. I have bad memory >.> Then, jungle trekking I guess. Oh oh and river crossing. More like river walking. I actually am typing this out with no feelings. .____. Next, we ate and had our prayers. Then, I think it was time for the war game. Playing in the rain at that was the awesomest experience. Getting punished for not wrapping the egg properly and made it break was another good thing. Because we got punished. And it was fun. Very. There was this one station where we had to catch these plastics full of violet colored water. One broke. I caught one. And the other three broke on my face. Yay. -.-

We had to do performances for the night. My group's theme was 'Niat'. Not many really understood our performance. Let me give a little something.

Scene 1:  Three boys. Best friends. Plan to study. Procrastinate. Play game. Watch excess television. Regret

Scene 2: Supermarket/shopping mall. Item fell. Put it back in place. Other people praise. Feels good being praised. Purposely make things fall while there's no one then putting it back when there's people to get more praises.

Scene 3 : Cutting onions to make spaghetti carbonara (there isn't onions in carbonara -.-). Someone calls name. Turns around. Accidentally killed a person who is hated the most. Feels happy for accidentally killing. Someone saw. Go to court. Pleads innocence. Not sure whether guilty or not. --CUT--

Teacher in class offs presentation. (the whole thing was a presentation). Teacher tells the moral values. Bla bla bla.

Yeah.

Moving on.

The next morning was breaking square session. Tell the results of the whole camp. Then, was the closing ceremony. And we're on our way to Quad P.

K. I'm done.

Tired

Bye.

Nyan

Hey hey hey 

Whuddup homies? What's new today? Let's see, we have gemstones for sale. There's this new store that sells armor for battles with monsters and yeah. I'm messing with you people. My randomness is in a whole new level that only awesome people like me could understand. B)

   Earlier today for P.E class, we had to choreograph our own gymnasts. I had to do gymnast with my friends Julia, Natrah and Azfar. We had to use shawls as a substitute for ribbons or ropes or whatever that is they use is in gymnasts. (how in the world am i supposed to know what they use -- I'm no gymnast -.-). It was hilarious. At least to me it was. Oh the joy. Then, we had Modern Maths class that was switched with Islamic Studies. Bla bla bla. More assignments added. Hurrah -.-

   Then, we had to go for Biology class, FOR 3 HOURS STRAIGHT :<. Who in the world would want that? Not me, for sure. Imagine, 3 hours. Biology. 45 minute-study 15 minutes-great they said, yet they forced us to learn stuff for hours straight. Not very helpful if you want to produce Nobel Laureates from these kids.

  Next, Japanese class. Ugh, Japanese class -.- . That teacher is so t(=_=)t. Never mind. Then, for preparation class time, my History group recorded our video for well, History. (lame Liyana is lame). Lots of other people their videos for who-knows-what at the same time. The noise was so ... woah. It's like we had to take turns for recording. No fun.

   I honestly don't know blogging much. This is sorta like a journal. But, I'm a failure n doing so. (I have low self-esteem on myself). I prefer tweeting. Cuz I'm like gangsta. Only them cool kids be tweetin'. Ok. Lame.

Just before I stop lemme do a little something down here.

Those eyes,
They look upon me of displease,
Only know of anger, 
Hatred is their bliss,
Those mouths, 
Speaking of lies, 
Words that they spit out 
cause chaos to the world.

Is it that I am to be blamed of this?
Could the fault be on me for this long?
I do not even know of them, 
Whether they are my people,
My kind was not taught to spite.

The world is coming to its end,
The people are becoming crueler,
Where has the humanity gone?
What happened to love?
Peace?
Where is it all now?
Deep down in all of their hearts
still there is tenderness,
fighting against the darkness
until the end.


just a little something by me :)
Chiaaaaaaaw.

Animals

    Hello again humans of the world. It has been a tiring day. It always has been. Hmm, let's see. Today, there was Chemistry. I felt soooooo guilty entering the lab. Well, you see, I didn't attend the last Chemistry class. Why? Because I slept. Yes, I slept. In my room. Why was I sleeping in my room during Chemistry class last week? Long story, if you ask me. Moving on.

   Then, there was Malay Language class. Meh. Needn't to explain about that. Maths was changed to Islamic Studies. As for Physics, nothing much.

   Oh oh here's the fun part. The. Forum. Yep. The. Forum. Question in my messed up mind have been answered. But, I never got the chance to ask. Too bad. Boo.

   The more funner part is le picture-taking for le magazine. Woo. I never realized how awesome the people are around me. Sometimes, this makes me down. Because, I feel lame. It's like I never do anything good. I don't deserve being on the place I am now. Seriously.

   Exam are soooooo freaking near. I haven't done anything. It's like I gave up on life long ago. I fell and I can't get on my feet. This horrible feeling has been around for the past how-long-I've-been-Quad-P. Huhh. Whatever. I guess that's all from me.

(notice that the title has nothing to do with this post xD)

Wee.

Greetings, people. 

It is I, Liyana Safinaz binti Abdul Kadir of the 4K7 assassin class of the wizardry school of PERMATApintar. (see what I did there, assassin in a wizard school). This magnificent blog (ceh) was created in order to accomplish my secret agent mission (not so secret anymore) from Mr. H. Okay, that was just weird. I was trying to be cool and swag and all but I failed. I ain't no cool kid. I'm just another girl of this world. I feel like I'm writing an essay right now. Heh. We'll see how long can I go.

Weirdo

There once lived a young girl in the village. She was named Weirdo thanks to her major weirdness. Although she was hated by most people around her, she did not care or even give a damn about it because she knew that it was her life to live and all that matters is her. She was weird for her awesomeness. All the people around did not like that just because they weren't as awesome as her. --i have no idea where this is going --
Err, that's all. Bye~